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Muhd Rahmat AKA Matthew Pharell
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You could say im quite of a story teller. But hey, who doesn't love stories?
But, below this facade, lies a broken person, with nothing to lose.
Im born on the 2nd Of June, 1990. A gemini and also an optimist.
Your's sincerely, Md Rahmat (Matt)
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chapter 4 : ouch....(part 2)
“What did you do?” a bewildered Amy looked at him, “don’t tell me that you just wasted your chance with her?!”
He just stared blankly into the open. He was not listening to a word Amy was spouting. Thinking back, was it the wrong decision to open up his heart? He believed that all this happened for a reason. How he was supposed to be somewhere else during the chalet. If he was not present during the chalet, he wouldn’t have slept over and in turn, wouldn’t have gone to the theme park.
No point in looking back now he thought, as the play has already been set into motion. What he will have to do is to be himself and not spoil the progress by spilling the beans to her just yet. If only it was as simple as saying it.
Later that week, he was due for an interview with SATS. He was nervous but hopeful with the chance of leaving his godforsaken job. Using his new found optimism, he was sure that nothing could drag him down. But knowing Life, it wouldn’t let him off easy. It sure has some ways to ruin his optimism and also crush him.
On the day of the interview, the duo felt nothing could bring them down. But what he’s going to do next may just be the hint of disappointment that could drag his optimism to a morbid low.
During the journey to the interview, he took out his phone and instantly started to type.
“Hey, to be honest, you had caught my heart the first time I saw you. I have fallen for you. I would want to be the person that’s always there for you through it all, even if means doing something stupid just to be beside you.” he paused for awhile to catch a breather, before continuing to type.
“But I think by now, I have made lots of wrong impression to you. Anyway, it’s been great knowing a
special lady like you”
As expected the reply he received wasn’t very hopeful, but in a twisted turn of fate, he felt relieved that he told her. He wasn’t the type that that believed the stereotype that you mustn’t tell the person that you have feelings for them. He felt that if you’re sincere, you should just say it to the person. Rejected or not, it’s the other party’s right to decide. We as the person that truly care about that person should be happy for the person.
And so, staring out the window of the bus, he gave a weak smile and let out a long sigh.
“What’s up with you?”
He just kept silent and smiled. He knew in his heart that he had done the right thing.
*to be continued*
*DISCLAIMER*
All characters are fictional. Any resemblance to real life entities are purely coincidental.
Matt's Publishing © 2010
chapter 4 : ouch....
He did not care whether he was seriously ill and exhausted; he still attended the important event anyway. Unbeknown to her, he almost passes out due to the strain on his health but kept on pushing it. He did it out of love to her. To him she was like the strength that kept him going.
He felt worst pain though, when he saw her in an emotional breakdown and can't do anything. It may strike her as odd that he was feeling it too but he cares for her. The atmosphere was tense during that period. Tears & sorrow blanketed the place. As he approached her, she backed off. Feeling as though he was shot in the heart, he just stops dead in his track. She didn’t want him to be near her during that point of time because she wanted to be alone. He mistook that she was distancing herself from him.
Then came the ultimate blow, he was told by his friend to leave as she didn’t want him there. Out of shock, he just left immediately but not before sneaking a glance at her. She didn’t even say goodbye which he had hope for. Dejected, a few drop of tears welled up in his eyes. Thoughts, regrets & self-pity were flooding in his head.
'What did I do wrong?’ He thought to himself, feeling furious, ‘was it something that I done during the event?'
He took out his phone staring at it, at her photo, before mustering enough courage to type out what he felt was right at that point of time.
“Hey, cheer up. Don’t beat yourself up. There will be more events like this and I know you could do better.”
No reply was received. He expected it though as her credits in her phone was low. With a heavy heart, he took a long, miserable stroll to the subway station. Winds were blowing in his face but it felt kind of relieving as it drowns the pain inside his heart.
A few days later, he felt everything was different.
He blames himself for what has happened. It was as though the aftermath of the event changed the course of the relationship. He felt lost, confused, dazed.
He just wanted to end it all...
To be continued....
*DISCLAIMER*
All characters are fictional. Any resemblance to real life entities are purely coincidental.
Matt's Publishing © 2010
Why me, why now? I'm so falling for her.. If this works out, coool, if not, double damn..
Life has a way of screwing around with our life. I don't wanna have to go to all the troubles, then getting rejected. It sucks. But then again, she's the first gal that got me to have this sort of 'feelings'. So, it must be something major. Im blushing just by thinking bout her. gosh...
Today i almost blew it, i wanted to send a tweet, instead, i accidentally send it to her instead... How dumb can i get?
Anyway, I'll stop it here for the moment, besok kerja sey...
*Transmission Ends*
Labels: ETP, love on first ride, pirate
But what lies below that hatred, that vengeance, that sorrow, lies hope. Well, thats what I want to believe anyway. Well, i would grasp any opportunities given to rectify the problem and maybe, just maybe I could get CLOSURE.
*Transmission Ends*
It highlighted my past doings.
I could walked in that dream like as though in real time. But everything was so surreal. It was like everyone was oblivious to my presence. I kept on walking till the moment I was in front of my sec 3 class. I saw myself in front of me, wearing a long-sleeved shirt and a prefect tie. It was then I realised I was facing my younger self. Its the event that led to the current predicament I'm in.
There she was, still a 'noobie' as i always called it. She was still under probation and was stationed alongside with me to usher in the parents for the dreaded "Meet The Parent" session. I was like, "what the hell?" when i saw that situation again. Suddenly, the dream fast-forwarded itself to the moment I first texted her. Well, it didn't went well, cause, being the jerk I was, I said something inappropriately timed. Then, everything starts snowballing at me. I see flashes of events that lead to where I am right now.
Then I found myself in the school's AVA Theatherette. I looked around and i realised that its the prefects' meeting. This time though, I was literally there with my school's uniform. When I turned, I saw him! Shannon.. The spotlight was on me. He was shunning me, critisizing me, bad-mouthed me in front of everybody, including her. I was ostracized. *Disclaimer*(This was a nightmare so this doesn't actually reflects what happened in the past.)
I was so angry at him. I wanted to whack him up, but instead I was stopped by Azwan and Farid and Almost everyone I knew. They said this, "Please la, save yourself the trouble, you're a loser in the first place. Unlike shannon, you sucks, always were, always will."
I woke up, flustered. I was waves of emotions hit me.
Azwan, get ready, coz' I'm gonna kill you!!
*Transmisson Ends*
It not only hurts them, it'll hurt you too. - Ruby in 'The Five People You Meet In Heaven'